{"id":964,"date":"2009-11-01T19:58:36","date_gmt":"2009-11-02T03:58:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/niasomoves.com\/Rachaelsblog\/?p=964"},"modified":"2010-09-09T16:35:15","modified_gmt":"2010-09-09T23:35:15","slug":"grieve-play-love","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/grieve-play-love\/","title":{"rendered":"4:  Grieve, Play, Love"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m very happy to report I&#8217;m now medically stable. \u00a0What a relief. \u00a0I&#8217;m no longer afraid to sleep for fear of not being able to breathe. \u00a0Yesterday, I spent the whole day out of bed! \u00a0I can talk now, but I sound like a funny, chipmunkish, Marlon Brando-esque squeaky frog.<\/p>\n<p>Last night, I was awake again for several hours speeding on prednisone. \u00a0I listened to the music in my head. \u00a0The Beatles sang \u201cAll You Need Is Love.\u201d \u00a0I did the &#8220;<a href=\"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/2009\/10\/31\/body-i-love-you\/\">Body, I Love You<\/a>&#8221; practice with difficulty. \u00a0Monkey-mind and prednisone are are great, mutually distracting playmates.<\/p>\n<p>I practiced in a new way.<\/p>\n<p>I said, &#8220;Grief, I love you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Each time I said, &#8220;Grief, I love you,&#8221;\u00a0my shoulder blades immediately warmed and filled with the energy of attention, and the warmth wrapped around through the bones of my chest, clavicles, sternum and ribs, then seeped into my lungs and heart.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft\" title=\"http:\/\/farm4.static.flickr.com\/3133\/2553620155_f08c5f9d03_m.jpg\" src=\"http:\/\/farm4.static.flickr.com\/3133\/2553620155_f08c5f9d03_m.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"160\" height=\"240\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Today, I began doing the Nia\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/2008\/06\/08\/the-five-stages-of-self-healing-embryonic\/\">Five Stages of Self-Healin<\/a>g movement practice on my bed. \u00a0The Five Stages of Self-Healing is based on the developmental movements we all did as infants and kids.<\/p>\n<p>Until now, I&#8217;ve been afraid I couldn&#8217;t breathe well enough in a horizontal position to attempt the practice. \u00a0When the body is horizontal, the lungs must work harder because gravity makes the chest and ribs weigh more. \u00a0(Of course, now I realize that I could&#8217;ve modified the practice and done it vertically.)<\/p>\n<p>As I began, I felt fear. \u00a0I felt afraid to move.<\/p>\n<p>Over the last three weeks, although everything has been very body-centered, out of necessity with my breathing so limited, I have done only the most basic movements: eat, rest, pee. \u00a0I have been doing the vast majority of my moving in the energetic realms. \u00a0I was shocked to realize how still I&#8217;ve been physically.<\/p>\n<p>I wept. \u00a0 I felt afraid I couldn&#8217;t do the Five Stages. \u00a0I felt didn&#8217;t deserve to exist on the face of the planet.<\/p>\n<p>Then something said, &#8220;Sense and feel, don&#8217;t think.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I entered into the practice of <a href=\"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/2008\/06\/08\/the-five-stages-of-self-healing-embryonic\/\">Embryonic<\/a>. \u00a0I wept, then I played and explored. \u00a0Delicious. \u00a0I was surprised by how much I could do and how much vitality was there waiting for me!<\/p>\n<p>Over the last three weeks, everything has been so very serious &#8212; life and death and all that. \u00a0What a blessing it is now to feel the spirit of play come in. \u00a0What a blessing it is now\u00a0to feel room in my body for some freedom.<\/p>\n<p>Grieve, Play, Love, Fear, Peace. \u00a0This body is a gift.<\/p>\n<p><em>(Fourth in a series about healing pneumonia and asthma.)<\/em><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m very happy to report I&#8217;m now medically stable. \u00a0What a relief. \u00a0I&#8217;m no longer afraid to sleep for fear of not being able to breathe. \u00a0Yesterday, I spent the whole day out of bed! \u00a0I can talk now, but I sound like a funny, chipmunkish, Marlon Brando-esque squeaky frog. 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