{"id":988,"date":"2009-11-02T22:25:08","date_gmt":"2009-11-03T06:25:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/niasomoves.com\/Rachaelsblog\/?p=988"},"modified":"2010-09-09T16:35:45","modified_gmt":"2010-09-09T23:35:45","slug":"why-did-the-universe-kick-my-ass","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/why-did-the-universe-kick-my-ass\/","title":{"rendered":"5: Why Did The Universe Kick My Ass?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" style=\"float: left; border: 0px initial initial;\" title=\"http:\/\/farm3.static.flickr.com\/2514\/4069577618_655d4bea0a_m.jpg\" src=\"http:\/\/farm3.static.flickr.com\/2514\/4069577618_655d4bea0a_m.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"240\" height=\"239\" \/><\/p>\n<p><em><br \/>\n <\/em><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Why\u00a0did the universe kick my ass?<\/p>\n<p>It matters and it matters not.<\/p>\n<p>The mind, in its constant seeking motions, naturally wants to know why.\u00a0 Let the mind move, look, see, be curious.\u00a0 But also consent to what is.<\/p>\n<p>These are some reflections.\u00a0 None is the answer. \u00a0The mystery &#8212; and the response to the mystery &#8212; are all that is.<\/p>\n<p>Why\u00a0did\u00a0the universe kick my ass?<\/p>\n<p>Because I needed to slow down.<\/p>\n<p>Because I need to grieve.<\/p>\n<p>Because I need\u00a0<em>shabbos<\/em>. \u00a0I need the\u00a0<em>shabbos<\/em> that visits me every two seconds after I exhale. \u00a0I need the <em>shabbos<\/em> of the seventh day.<\/p>\n<p>Because I need to unchoose grasping again and again &#8212; even after my heart&#8217;s desires.\u00a0 I may or may not need to let go of my heart\u2019s desires, but the more I let go of grasping, the more I will live. \u00a0I desire to be the drowning person who by letting go into the dark deep\u00a0finds herself floating in the ebb and flow of the great\u00a0ocean of love.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft\" title=\"http:\/\/farm4.static.flickr.com\/3519\/4063026976_d146618f01_o.jpg\" src=\"http:\/\/farm4.static.flickr.com\/3519\/4063026976_d146618f01_o.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"240\" height=\"240\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n<p>So I can go deeper and learn more about the respiratory pattern that echoes every day between duty, obligation and responsibility and true presence, self-expression and the mystery.<\/p>\n<p>Because the unmetabolized grief of the last 5,00o years of traumatic human flight away from the unbearable loss of forgotten, ancient, beautiful and small, natural cultures of all our ancestors, cultures that embraced the indigenous vitality of all things in such a way as to keep life alive rather than trample the beautiful ground of the earth and our bodies is so incredibly overwhelming.<\/p>\n<p>Because I need to make offerings. \u00a0Yes, I was willing to be the offering, but now it would be good to make some beads.<\/p>\n<p>So I could really learn <a href=\"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/2009\/10\/30\/grief-and-the-lungs-of-the-world\/\">what my teacher Mart\u00edn Prechtel has been saying all these years<\/a>.<\/p>\n<p>So I could learn to listen and feel, love and heal my body at a deeper place than I ever could before.<\/p>\n<p>So I can bless <span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">everything<\/span>.<\/p>\n<p>Because life is asking me to\u00a0get really good at cracking open my heart, to\u00a0get really good at\u00a0growing my attention, and to\u00a0get really good at\u00a0exhaling completely again and again and again into the Island of Now the Ocean of All Time.<\/p>\n<p>Aahhh.<\/p>\n<p><em>(Fifth in a series on healing pneumonia and asthma.)<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><br \/>\n <\/em><\/p>\n<p><br class=\"spacer_\" \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Why\u00a0did the universe kick my ass? It matters and it matters not. The mind, in its constant seeking motions, naturally wants to know why.\u00a0 Let the mind move, look, see, be curious.\u00a0 But also consent to what is. These are some reflections.\u00a0 None is the answer. \u00a0The mystery &#8212; and the response to the mystery [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[15,17,21,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-988","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-dancing-through-life","category-healing","category-lungs","category-ongoing-nia-classes"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/988","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=988"}],"version-history":[{"count":46,"href":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/988\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1919,"href":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/988\/revisions\/1919"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=988"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=988"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/synergy-pt.net\/niablog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=988"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}