Cross-Training Body Mind Emotions Spirit | Rachael R. Resch

I expected the same from Blue Belt.  But Blue Belt is not the foundation of Nia like White Belt is.  Blue Belt is about communication, relationship and intimacy.  All week long I felt like a lens was at the wrong angle, so that I was not receiving quite as clearly as I might, even though I trusted that all the light was entering.

At the end of the final day, after we received our certificates and our blue belts, I realized why.  I’m Embryonic. 

I have never been a Brown Belt doing the Blue Belt before.  I have never been in this relationship with Blue Belt, or with Nia before.  I’ve never been in this body before.  It’s all new.  I’m wide-eyed.  I’m an immigrant in a new land, staring, wondering, disoriented.  “What’s that?  And what’s that?”  I’m a newborn baby.  I’m not sure what to do with all that I’m sensing or how to respond to things.  I don’t know the language spoken here.  My nervous system is new and very sensitive.

The sensation of being home is new, the sensation of teaching Nia is new, the sensation of being in relationship with myself, with my husband, with my house and with everything is new. Everything feels familiar and strange, beautiful and painful, like a dream.